Anger, Indifference, Joy

The results came. The college applications. I didn't get into my first two choices. I should have gotten into my first two choices considering the marks I got. But I didn't! I don't know why I didn't, but apparently I wasn't the only one with problems. At least I got into a college, even though it was more of a safety net than an actual choice but still at least I wont have to give the horrid exam another year. A lot of the people who did better than me, who had high hopes of getting into almost anywhere they applied to didn't get in, mostly because of the high hopes they had, they didn't pick a safety net.


At first I was annoyed, no one knows why the results were so mixed up this year, there are a few guesses but none believable enough for me to post them. It seemed so frustrating, I studied for a year, and then this, this mess that no one knows where it originates and no one has any answers.

But then I came to realise that maybe, just maybe staying in my own home town with my loving family might not be such a bad idea, that when the indifferent feeling started, I would have loved to go but it seemed great to stay so I didn't really care about the results, it seemed like a win-win situation, suddenly it didn't matter who or what had caused the mess, all that mattered was that my own town, Yazd, actually has one of the best architecture universities in the country.

My cousin got into the best college in Iran, he left last night to go to Tehran, that's when the joy arrived. Not because he left, I will miss him with all my heart, he is like a brother to me and I cant imagine not being able to visit him whenever I want to. No, it wasn't cause hes gone, it was cause I stayed, cause I realised when he left how much I was gonna miss him and I also realised how much more pain I would have had to endure had I left. For the pain of missing one of my best friends, my brother if you might say is nothing compared to the pain of missing my parents.

That's when I believed something everyone was always telling me. That God has a plan for all of us, and if something, then maybe, just maybe, there is a silver lining, maybe its all for the best or as Albus Dumbledore would say : Its for the Greater Good!